Nervous Wreckage

by Feeling Gravity's Pull

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Nervous Wreckage is the third album by Merced, CA rock band Feeling Gravity's Pull.

Special thanks to Dan Hong, Skylar Francise, RC Essig, Kevin Minor and Mason Pitzel.

H/T: The Partisan Tavern, Gottschalks' Music, Youbiquicast, The Downtown Life Magazine (RIP), Bus Stop Boxer, SixHands Mouth, Light Thieves, College Kids, Rademacher, The Down Dirty Shake, Dirty Limbs, The Airlings, City Psychology, Not An Airplane, Buster Blue, Neu China (TX), Squab Squawk, Nonagon, Practice Wife, Plywood, These Estates, Victory And Associates and all the crazy dudes and ladies of the PRF, Live From The Barrage, and listeners like you.

Thank you.

© 2014 Feeling Gravity's Pull. Catalog number FGP-003.

credits

released 16 September 2014

Christopher Casuga: guitar (right channel), vocals
Scott Hernandez-Jason: guitar (left channel), vocals
Sean Porter: bass guitar
Dante Johnson: drums

Music by Feeling Gravity's Pull
Lyrics written by Christopher Casuga, except on "Animal My Soul" written by Scott Hernandez-Jason
Recorded at The Ark by Christopher Casuga in Merced, CA in June 2014
Mastered by Mason Pitzel in September 2014

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Track Name: Into the Crevasse
Water hits my skin
A million little drops to soak me to the clothes
To cast away
If I wanna have any chance of getting close to dry
But all that does
Is leave all the new scars completely exposed
Like they never healed
And I don't think they ever will

Again like I'm reliving the pain
Alone I go into the crevasse
Come on in and you can slice me open
Let me bleed out for another pass

The rain came back again
Like I was still stark naked and vulnerable to you
To all you do
To remind me of every mistake that I made
And even worse
I'm probing the depths of the wounds to find that
I put them there myself
And I might as well just keep stabbing

Again like I'm reliving the pain
Alone I go into the crevasse
Come on in and you can slice me open
Let me bleed out for another pass

Should've suspected
That the grass would soon grow greener on the other side
Because the rain
Would pour in such effect that gave you no place to hide
Now you're like me
A thousand little needles in a thousand little holes
And now I hope
That just like me you can take the plunge

Again like I'm reliving the pain
Alone I go into the crevasse
Come on in and you can slice me open
Let me bleed out for another pass
Track Name: The Committee to Keep Death Permanent
From every moment on we're glued to every word you say
Every hope is tied to you in every way
Hope you don't mind all the extra weight
(If we all die, it won't matter what you meant
From your friends at the Committee to Keep Death Permanent)
If you tread, tread with the knowledge
That you tread through a mine-infested passage
All it takes is one step, all it takes is one step
(If we all die, it won't matter what you meant
From your friends at the Committee to Keep Death Permanent)

Our opposites stride into the room
Dressed to kill and if they do, they'll start out with you
They'll be reading off every cue you give
(If we all die, it won't matter what you meant
From your friends at the Committee to Keep Death Permanent)
We rehearsed this every moment of last week
Down to every breath you take in between your speech
So why the hell are you going off script now?
(If we all die, it won't matter what you meant
From your friends at the Committee to Keep Death Permanent)

I spoke out of turn but the world didn't end
The negotiation failed but what else could you expect?
The dealmakers left through the door
But where we are now is still where we was before
The work continues and the boots stroll on
Hunker down and stay hungry 'til the dawn
Who the fuck cares other than you?
Who the fuck cares other than you?
Track Name: Animal My Soul
Broken benches and missing sidewalks out here
Dogs organize, then disappear
Tobacco-stained sun-soaked lies
Animal my soul, then ask me why

If you're telling someone, you're telling yourself
If the student's no better, the teacher failed
If you're failing someone, you're failing yourself
I'm far from where to be, now let's just go home

Clean feet stick in clay creek beds
Someday you'll leave where you're lead
Broken asphalt in infinite loop
A feedback chain, linking with you

If you're telling someone, you're telling yourself
If the student's no better, the teacher failed
If you're failing someone, you're failing yourself
I'm far from where to be, now let's just go home

(Home) Wherever it is
(Home) It doesn't even exist
(Home) We stop both space and time
(Home) But it won't change your made up mind

The past isn't dead, it's not even past
Like water runs, nothing lasts
In these last few minutes under the sun
I wish you didn't leave me so undone

If you're telling someone, you're telling yourself
If the student's no better, the teacher failed
If you're failing someone, you're failing yourself
I'm far from where to be, now let's just go home
Track Name: No Window
Walked to the street to check for letters
But I can't 'cause I've no mailbox at all
Immerse myself in the throng of passerby
Wading in the waters of the current of humanity
Neck deep feeling like I'll drown
I can feel the flesh choke me by the mouth
So I return to the comfort of my home
No window so I can be alone

You use such words like stir-crazy
Isolationist to describe the way that I live
But you don't see the silent grace
In giving up on having any else to give
I've got some books and movies on the shelf
Got enough food for the next week or so
No other souls to lead me to distraction
Nothing but me and no window
Track Name: Hangar One at Moffett Field
I was in the back seat
101 North
I looked out to the right
And it stood monolithic
Like a grounded space shuttle
Not an angle in sight
And I would lay eyes upon it
On every trip to San Francisco
To take relatives from the airport
It's still in my mind now
It's still in my mind now

Oh Hangar One, pilot take me home
To the safest place I have ever known
Oh Hangar One, you held my dreams
Big as the airships underneath your seams
Oh Hangar One, if you die
So do the hopes that I could return someday
Oh Hangar One, oh Hangar One

Memorable but forgotten
Like all the other landmarks
Are you a skeleton now?
Now you're a fossil unearthed
Your steel bones for all to see
What do you call a shell with nothing covering
And I had in my mind images of downtown San Jose
Remnants of an alternate life
If I could only jump sideways
If I could only jump sideways

Oh Hangar One, pilot take me home
To the safest place I have ever known
Oh Hangar One, you held my dreams
Big as the airships underneath your seams
Oh Hangar One, if you die
So do the hopes that I could return someday
Oh Hangar One, oh Hangar One

When the airships return to roost
When they inadvertently spoil the plot
I'd rather mean the world to few
Than matter only little to a lot

In my childhood bedroom
Playing with a compass to pass the time
Trying to find true north
Trying to find true north

Oh Hangar One, pilot take me home
To the safest place I have ever known
Oh Hangar One, you held my dreams
Big as the airships underneath your seams
Oh Hangar One, if you die
So do the hopes that I could return someday
Oh Hangar One, oh Hangar One
Oh Hangar One, oh Hangar One
Oh Hangar One, oh Hangar One
Track Name: I Broke Kayfabe
I broke kayfabe, yeah now I dropped the mask
And none of my old fans are ever coming back
I cut the line that was already blurred
Between reality and fiction and lessons never learned

There's no use in a gimmick when it's just already me
In the squared circle taking bumps for everyone to see
The only difference is, when I'm not in the ring
Is that I'm the same person but afraid of everything

But when I think about it, it's my fear of defeat
That pushes me to go all-in when I'm called to compete
How is it that I'm a beast when the gloves are drawn
Yet declawed, defanged and deballed when the house come on

I broke kayfabe, yeah now I dropped the mask
And none of my old fans are ever coming back
I cut the line that was already blurred
Between reality and fiction and lessons never learned

You think it seamless but we're calling all our spots
Making gestures no one picks up on when the highlights come up
Do I look like a deity when putting on my shoes?
The real story is there's not much else that I know how to do

But when I think about it, it's my fear of defeat
That pushes me to go all-in when I'm called to compete
How is it that I'm a beast when the gloves are drawn
Yet declawed, defanged and deballed when the house come on

I broke kayfabe, yeah now I dropped the mask
And none of my old fans are ever coming back
I cut the line that was already blurred
Between reality and fiction and lessons never learned

The line is blurred 'cause there's no difference to be made
'Tween when I'm in my civvies and the clothing of my trade
If I could be consistent, I'd be top of the lot
Than to be the loser jobber who can't even get a pop

But when I think about it, it's my fear of defeat
That pushes me to go all-in when I'm called to compete
How is it that I'm a beast when the gloves are drawn
Yet declawed, defanged and deballed when the house come on

I broke kayfabe, yeah now I dropped the mask
And none of my old fans are ever coming back
I cut the line that was already blurred
Between reality and fiction and lessons never learned

I broke kayfabe, yeah now I dropped the mask
And none of my old fans are ever coming back
But I won't be stuck between the loner in the locker room
And the main eventer in the stands who's just starting to bloom
Track Name: Games of Empire
(Instrumental)